Testo Selfless

These thoughts, only a symptom to pave way
Full-fledged addiction it unfolds and takes shape
Not to the bottle that I know I now crave
But the existence I pray that won’t take me

God you know I'm trying to be better off sober
Trying just to get over the guilt that I can’t get control of
Instilled by pain I can't get a hold on
If only I could pick myself up
I'd learn to prove you wrong
I've been holding back
This feeling that I’m all alone

This infection has changed and reshaped me
I’m ashamed and afraid you’ll replace me
Every breath I take laced with complacency
Plaguing my brain, there’s no escaping this

How have I sunk this low
Failing to breathe
I can't breathe
I'm losing control
If only I could pick myself up
I’d learn to prove you wrong
I’ve been holding back
This feeling that I’m all alone

If only I could pick myself up
I’d learn to prove you wrong
I’ve been holding back
This feeling that I’m all alone

Look me in the eye, tell me I am fine
My thoughts bury me alive

Look me in the eye, tell me I am fine
My thoughts bury me alive

Look me in the eye, tell me I am fine
My thoughts bury me alive

Bury me alive

If it's all in my head, why I'm alive all the while
I wish I was dead
Why am I alive
Why am I alive