Testo Dead Melodies

I CANNOT REMEMBER THE LAST TIME I SMILED I ONLY KNOW I'M STARING COLD SINCE I CAN THINK FORGOTTEN THINGS RISE UP AGAIN AND PULL ME TOWARDS DEATH NOTHING I HOLD IN MY HAND THAT IS WHY I CRY WILL ANYONE BE THERE FOR ME WILL ANYONE REMEMBER ME ALL I CAN HEAR ARE DEAD MELODIES THEY SURROUND ME SHOW ME THE MEANING OF MY LIFE THEY SURROUND ME SHOW ME WHY I CRY ALL THAT I TRIED TO DO, I HAVE FAILED SO I RETURNED BACK INTO THE SHADOWS WHAT CAN I DO NOW, I HAVE NOTHING INSTEAD OF THIS GUN IN MY HAND AND SO I WALK MY WAY ( I SHOOT MYSELF ) TO END THIS SUFFERING MY EXISTENCE BROKEN DROWNED IN A LONELY TEAR