Testo People Pleaser

Jump in the water like it don't matter, I'm scared of sharks
I'll buy a painting, hang it and frame it, I hate the art
Don't lose my head when you just forget and leave me on 'read'
I was done drinking, you say 'tequila', I'll buy the shots

So what does it mean? Keeps getting sadder
Was it sixteen that made me not matter?
Was it Logan or Robby? Cheer captain named Carly That made the cut deeper and messed up my body?
I'll keep being sweeter, but at my demise
Call me people pleaser and damn if they're right
Damn it, they're right

Turned up the banjo, dyed my hair blonder, I got the add
Split up the moments, Grammys is Mom's and CMA's Dad's
Don't lose my mind when wrong is alright
Just won't sleep at night (Phone by my side)
Internalize internet lies, no, really it isn't so bad

What does it mean climbing the ladder?
Was it this dream that made me not matter?
Was it drinking at parties or not getting sorrys?
Wrong ring on my finger or cosplaying Barbie That made me so eager to smile and lie?
Call me people pleaser and damn if they're right
Damn it, they're right

Now I just wanna scream
But that would be dramatic of me, yeah
Right now I just wanna leave
But I guess that I'll stay, he likes me today

So what does it mean, crying at Radnor?
I just can't seem to cut out the chatter
I'll keep being sweeter 'cause that's what they like
She's skinny, so feed her and I'll take a bite
A selfish man-eater, you're wrong but alright
Fuck, who am I?
Damn it, they're right