Testo Blaine's Charizard

I'm melodramatic, addicted to self-loathing and apathy
I disregard progress as useless intentionally

you ask why I hate myself so here's some honesty
you ask why I never talk so here are some loaded words

I'm a burden on my best days, fragile but non-recyclable
I'm proficient in solitude and the art of concealing emotion
you ask why I hate myself so here's some honesty
you ask why I never talk so here are some loaded words

can I just close my eyes and never wake up?
can I please be anyone but me?