Testo This Misery

All the times I'm searching for the words to say
All the nights that I'm lyin' awake in my bed and pray
No one who cares no one who's there to help me out again
Part of me tries but part of me never will understand
Seems like I am the only one

No! I don't know what's going on with me!
Who should I blame for this misery?
I never knew - could it be true that I should live like this?
Following you just to get through might be wrong
Trapped in these fears hiding the tears that I could cry
Nothing's all right, I'm not able to fight, but tell me why
Seems like I am really the only one

I am forsaken, I am mistaken
And I'm breakin' all the rules
If I am sleeping, where's the awakening?
I've got nothing left to lose