Testo Merry Go Round

I tell my soul to feel alive again
Some days, I wish I could pretend
So sick of wakin' up in the mornin'
I find myself prayin' to God again
I don't know if I hear a friend
'Cause it's just me, the way you talkin'

I'm stuck inside this merry go round Don't know if I wanna get out
It's so wrong if, bein' honest

'Cause I drink too much, I think too much
I barely like myself enough
I say, "I'm fine, but I hurt inside
I fall in love, I fuck it up
No wonder what the fuck it was
It's all a lie, and I'm terrified

All my days feelin' like weeks again
I find myself spirallin'
With every turn, I lose a piece of my heart

Stuck inside this merry go round Don't know if I wanna get out
Was so wrong if, bein' honest

'Cause I drink too much, I think too much
I barely like myself enough
I say, "I'm fine, but I hurt inside
I fall in love, I fuck it up
No wonder what the fuck it was
It's all a lie, and I'm terrified

And I'm on ice, surrounded
Just underneath, I'm drownin'
And it's all a lie, and I'm terrified

I drink too much, I think too much
I barely like myself enough
I say, "I'm fine, but I hurt inside
I fall in love, I fuck it up
No wonder what the fuck it was
It's all a lie, and I'm terrified