Testo Mess

I'm a mess, I’ve been a mess for months
I know it's real
And I've been doing anything I can and [?]

And I know that putting all this liquor in my body
Won’t exonerate me from the guilt that I'm seeing
No, there's nothing in the world that's gonna stop me still
I wait for you and I know
It's late and I wanna go home
But I'm scared [?] it'll be without you
I hate taking off my own clothes
Getting in my own bed
Spinning thoughts about you
It's late and I’m waiting behind
For the drums to kick in
And erase my heartbeat
I hate how it’s all in my head
Smoking new cigarettes
Thinking you could still want me

I'm a mess, I’ve been a mess for months
I know it's true I look for validation from anybody that's not you, yeah

And I know that putting all this liquor in my body
Won't exonerate me from the guilt that I’m seeing
No, there's nothing in the world that's gonna stop me still
I wait for you and I know

It's late and I wanna go home
But I'm scared [?] it'll be without you
I hate taking off my own clothes
Getting in my own bed
Spinning thoughts about you
It's late and I'm waiting behind
For the drums to kick in
And erase my heartbeat
I hate how it's all in my head
Smoking new cigarettes
Thinking you could still want me

It's late and I'm waiting behind
For the drums to kick in
And erase my heartbeat
I hate how it's all in my head
And I know I [?]
Thinking you could still want me