Testo Why I Resist

I'm writing you this letter from my car
I'm still wondering about the dark
Is it just like nighttime?
Some say it does not exist

I have sabotaged my own success
If there is no darkness
Why would I do it? I am considering
I am considering this

That maybe my need to not conform
Is closer to my heart of hearts
Than is my need
Is my need to fit in

That would explain
Why I resist
That would explain
Why it's come to this
That would explain
That would explain this
What is strange to me
Is this yearning
This yearning I am preferring
To the thing
To the thing that I love

It's the same with the music
I choose the song
That almost delivers
I follow along
Hope it saves the best for last
I craft my story just like that

And that would explain
Why I resist
That would explain
Why it's come to this
That would explain
That would explain this

It took a while for me to include you
In my nighttime prayers
It took a while for me to include you
Now you're always there
And at first your love is just how I want it
I don't worry about your death
Then it sneaks in
And I ache for your happiness

And nothing explains
Why I can't resist
Nothing explains
Why it's come to this
Nothing explains
Nothing explains this