Testo Risk/Reward

I'm giving up
future obligations
but i set a deadline
for a few exceptions
all in all a win for everyone
only opposed because
of family tradition,
my humble beginnings, social values and such

even though i could make
conscious efforts to change
it just wouldn't be quite the same

and sure enough
my wisdom was flawed
oh silly thoughts!
call it a complex
call it whatever you want

even though i could make
conscious efforts to change
for all intents and purposes i don't know if it'd be good enough

for the record
it's not just a passing thought
we knew all along
it might take too long
yeah, i know, i know
some risks come with reward
and in looking forward
i don't know where to start