Testo Effortless

I'm trying not to try so hard
It makes me wonder if it's really effortless
Or if I'm fooling myself
'Cause if I have to put so much of me
Into trying not to care
Where am I then?
I'm lying.
And do you see the way I walk away?
I never really know what I should say
So it comes out wrong if it comes out at all

So I straighten myself out, I bring me back down
Don't be ridiculous, you are so wrong
But then I'm drifting on a wave of thought
I get lost in the tide and I can barely recognise myself
I don't mind 'cause

Do you see the way I walk away?
I never really know what I should say
So it comes out wrong if it comes out at all

So I try to act the way I wouldIf I was someone that wasn't me
But you wipe that away, don't you?
And I am falling down, I am tripping on words
I am out of my mind; you know this is not like me
I'm not usually happy I swear

And do you see the way I walk away?
I never really know what I should say
So it comes out wrong

And I turn my back and I don't look back
I am unafraid. Oh, but really I'm just kidding
I'm terrified and I think I like it
And I don't care if I look ridiculous trying to be effortless