Testo Light Years Behind

I can't believe this
Will I throw it all away?
It's been my whole life
At least since I was young
Bills stack up and don't get paid
It doesn't feel right
Keep my mouth shut and play along
Seldom second guess every action This time I think I might have
Wished I had done a few things differently
All the crappy jobs, the drinks, and drugs
Watching too much TV
I feel I'm light years behind
People the same age as me
Can you blame me?
Is this really a surprise?
Hints weren't hidden
All the doubt
Keeps growing is size
Did I ever lead you on?
Not something I tried
Hate to think I strung you along
Hey, do I have to decide now? Wait, give me more time
Hey, I really can't decide this now
Wait, I need more time
Don't return calls
Been climbing walls
The days I don't eat
Liquor filled fights, the lonely nights
Crying myself to sleep
I feel I'm light years behind
People the same age as me