Testo Stone Tower Steps

did i not just do this?
i can't remember the first time
i climbed this stone helix
the last time i saw by a light
i see black so poorly
i only feel by the cold rail
direction, or motion;
or am i just standing still
now i'm falling back out over
all these steps that i've climbed
all these flaws that i thought i'd mastered
they've got me from behind

and i lay flat on my back, eyes upward
as drops of moonlight come raining in
and in that light, and in Your eyes, i find the strength to
climb these tower steps again

in the back of my mind
it seems they're coming again for
my mind and my spirit
as if i had them controlled just as i see progress
it seems all steps look the same and
i'll never know how to
regain my insight again

dear God i surrender
these struggles that i can't command
and like a tiny child
let me walk by holding Your hand