Testo Double Negative

First to be
Running for the answer
My head burns
And my heart aches

Let the drop anything
And falling asleep
But I don't want to be awake I just rather stay asleep
And be alone today

I rather fuck around you
Than be alive today
Run myself inside
Until it goes away

I'm trying to see this in a different way
Beyond just go on
Right now I told you, and right inside of me
I'm 22 see this differently

My home is where my heart
And I suppose I lost my home
A long long time ago