Testo Keep It Even

There's a drawer in my house that i try
to keep closed but it's open. There's
a commitment that i made to be
somewhere but it's broken. An oblique
mantra in my head it lies there on
the floor like a bed that would
collapse like a trap, if it was spoken
you gotta keep it even, even when you're uptight

even when you're happy
even when you're reaching for some
line i've had in mind, it's been re-
pressed over time, so i'm breathing
seduced by an excuse that could
not be made but i'm speaking

there's a phone with a number that
i try not to call but it's ringing
for someone i've tried to keep to
myself but i'm singing. It's logic
that's twisted and paraphrased and
justified by a distance that separates a bond, bound of persistence

you gotta keep it even, even when
you're uptight
even when you're happy
even when you're reaching for
that drawer in my house that i try
to keep closed but its open