Testo Happiness

I really hope that you find happiness
And that book you write's magnificent
And I can't help but stare at every word
It would burn holes in all my mattresses
After I place it down, read unfold
In that lovely little book titled 'I told you so'

You're thorough-ly confused At this world
But buck up, this place will never change
It's gonna get way worse
At best stay the same

So you'll be fucking world renowned
While I'm getting drunk at my house
Thinking about the words I said when
I was really fucking high
Those two pills I took felt very nice
But made me act very very mean

And I said "Ashley, that's so fucking dumb
To think that life just hands you some book
That you barely even have to write It's gonna take fucking 4 or 5 books nobody would ever like
For you to live that wonderful life"

And she stopped
And she cried
And that night
She's right, she'll write that fucking book
That'll make me look
Like the fool

And I know that she'll find happiness
And her book will be magnificent
And I won't help but stare at every word
It's gonna burn holes in all my mattresses
After I place it down, read unfold
In that lovely little book titled 'I told you so'

You're thorough-ly mad at me
But so what? I'm never gonna change
I'm gonna get way worse
At best stay the same

So I will sit
And I will drink my self
To either to sleep or my untimely death
Either way I hope that you don't cry, you know
That's just a part of life
Derek's father and my father know
Cirrhosis is a tough way to go

So when we drink a lot after our show
Pretending we're not even scared at all
Genetics are what make me go to bed
Because there's something that's inside my head
That will click and make me drink until I'm dead
History's been the same for many men

So I will sit and
I will think about this life
And if I even like it
But I know that I'm gonna find

At least a little happiness
I think it's in my house or somewhere else
But I am turning over every stone
I will search the fucking depths of this
Wretched place my kids will have to live
In order just to breathe a great breath
But you know

I'm though-ly in love with you
And I'm scared that I may never change
But I'm so fucking done with
Being afraid
I hope you guys find happiness