Testo No More

All this anxiety, I been getting like no sleep
Expectations from those who don't even know me
I been questioning if the struggle is worth it
And becoming a totally different person
Doing things I promised myself I'd of never done
Stare the devil in the face and I would never run
I'm just trying to be happy when it's all said and done
And not regret a damn thing the day that Heaven come Drugs and money controlling everything in my life
Overthinking everything, just laying awake at night
My heart is beating, I'm breathing, but never feel alive
No one really knows what's going on up in my mind
Suicidal thoughts but I don't really want to die
I'm about to break down, I just want to cry
I been feeling like my life is really on the line
If I said it, I meant it, I won't apologize

Everyone around me dying
Everyone around me lying
I could really use a sign
I could really use a sign
I don't really want to feel like this no more
I don't really want to live like this no more Everyone around me dying
Everyone around me lying
I could really use a sign
I could really use a sign
I don't really want to feel like this no more
I don't really want to live like this no more

Every day, use to pop pills, no one could stop me
Rest in peace Mac, what I'm saying is "Things almost got me"
I really wish instead of my cousin, that kid shot me
The ones that I trusted was the same ones that robbed me
I'm not sad, I'm not happy, I just been getting by
Quit smoking for a while, lately been getting high
Grew apart from my family, lost all my sanity
Reading tweets of people saying they used to be a fan of me
I did a lot of things, now I'm regretting it
Sick of giving money to all of these damn therapists
If I had a rewind button, I would be pressing it
Every single minute I'm awake, I be stressing shit
They say they love the old me, that makes two of us then
Last couple years, I got used to losing my friends
Screw me over once, I know that you will do it again
And I'm the only one that lose in the end, damn
I'm sick of talking, I don't even want to write this
Had to make a song, I don't care if no one likes it
These are thoughts I had bottled up, this my therapy
I just wanted everyone to know before they bury me

Everyone around me dying
Everyone around me lying
I could really use a sign
I could really use a sign
I don't really want to feel like this no more
I don't really want to live like this no more
Everyone around me dying
Everyone around me lying
I could really use a sign
I could really use a sign
I don't really want to feel like this no more
I don't really want to live like this no more
I don't want to feel like this
I don't want to feel like this
I don't want to live like this
I don't want to live like this
Everyone around me dying
Everyone around me lying
I could really use a sign
I could really use a sign
I don't really want to feel like this no more
I don't really want to live like this no more
Everyone around me dying
Everyone around me lying
I could really use a sign
I could really use a sign
I don't really want to feel like this no more
I don't really want to live like this no more