Testo Fever

Yo, and maybe I'll find my love, and maybe these demons know
But it's hard to sleep at night, this house is full of ghosts
I'll hold you close to my chest to release the thought of you
A constant reminder of how not everything is possible
Pick up the pieces of a broken heart
You can't move on if you don't hit restart
I gave my life to art like that's the shit that gave me purpose
You were always there but I ignored you like you weren't the muse Feeling usеd, asking me, you're finding more drama for viеws
Cause if the shit is healthy, it reflects in the music you do
These people love you when you're dying, right?
But when you're happy, are they happy for you?
It's like I'm sinking in an expectation
I never thought I'd make it
And the closer I get now, the more I start to hate it
It's always my big dreams and what I'm trying to do
Too focused on building myself and it broke you

Whoa, when it rains it pours
And you drown in your old ways
Oh baby, you'll be catching fevers
Like I feel like the season
There's less I can believe in Drown in your old ways
Oh baby, you've been catching fevers

Yo, sometimes I stay up late just writing and thinking 'bout life
My childhood dreams of being a rapper almost in my sights
Turn out the lights, I hit the pillow then my mind is up
And feeling no matter what, I'm not good enough
See, I don't have an off switch, I ignore my mental health
And I used to fight it off but I'm so obsessive now
Find me in a different timeline, a different world
Without the music and the stress, just a boy and girl
Just the loving times, just like the books you read
Just like those characters you take and project onto me
It's hard to see when there ain't no finish line that's in sight
You smile at me, I smile back but inside
I wanna scream until my lungs burn and end it all
Yeah, that's extreme but I'm a troubled individual
It's always my big dreams and trying to get this buzz
Too focused on building myself and it broke us

Whoa, when it rains it pours
And you drown in your old ways
Oh baby, you'll be catching fevers
Like I feel like the season
There's less I can believe in
Drown in your old ways
Oh baby, you've been catching fevers
Whoa, when it rains it pours
And you drown in your old ways
Oh baby, you'll be catching fevers
Like I feel like the season
There's less I can believe in
Drown in your old ways
Oh baby, you've been catching fevers (fevers, fevers, fevers)