Testo Losing Patience

i was looking forward to this day for so long
i had it all planned out
i was hoping it'd all work out
i was losing patience
you know it's never been my best trait
counting minutes, hours, counting days

then it dawned on me unpredictabilty
i told myself everything's just fine
you worry too much, it's gonna eat you alive

i was looking forward to this day for so long
i had it all planned out
i was hoping it'd all work out
will it all work out

now i feel exposed
like a black light on the wall in a darkened room
all the dirt appears
you can see my fears
i don't want to let my guard down
you know i never had the feeling
that you would prey on my insecurities
you know i never had the feeling
that you would prey on these insecurities i have

why is this wait taking so long
counting minutes, hours, counting days
i'm losing patience

don't think this means i'm walking away
i won't let fear get the best of me
now it's up to me
i wouldn't change a thing
(DON'T THINK THIS MEANS I'M WALKING AWAY)