Testo Ma

Of her sheltered youth
She tells me
Everything she never knew
About the world
About men

I hope that i’ll be able to dance as proudly and deliberately as her
I hope that i’ll be able to laugh as proudly and deliberately as her
I laugh when she writes on my band’s page, how proud she is
She wants me to sing at her 80th birthday
If not, her funeral

I’ll make sure that I’m there before that
That i don’t show up, hungover again
Late fresh off a plane, walking foolishly
Towards her empty casket

I hope that i’ll be able to laugh as proudly and deliberately as her

I took her for granted
She cleaned my teenage room
She never said much i try not to think about her
I wish that i had the chance to talk to her as an adult
I really sucked as a preteen
I wish that i had the chance to talk to her as an adult
I really sucked as a preteen

As a preteen

We’ll never know
She refused to tell

We urged her to write down our family tree
On her deathbed