Testo Hallow / Hollow

This is appalling
I am ugly and degraded
at last to ask forgiveness
for everything I've ever done
for everything I've ever said
"I've failed you, father.
I've disheartened you, mother.
deceived all friends, cursed the great squirming mass
and prayed for the end of the world."
meaning nothing
whispering shrieking into a void