Testo Leaving This World

I can't walk carrying this ash on my back
I need to let it go, I need to let it go
But I can't let go when I'm on my own
How in the hell was this house once a home?
When I think I've found happiness,
It never lasts
Relax, it's all in the past
Oh, is this the end
Of everything I thought was real?
This can't be the end
This world used to seem surreal
Testing my patience with time,
You've made up your mind
If you're leaving this world, I'm not far behind
I thought all of this was real, I thought all of this was real

I knew peace was a long shot
I was sorry long before you all thought
Stay silent while the whole world
Thinks I'm something I'm not
Become the target of hatred,
Make me the target of hatred When I think I've found happiness,
It never lasts
Relax, it's all in the past

Oh, is this the end
Of everything I thought was real?
This can't be the end
This world used to seem so real
Testing my patience with time,
You've made up your mind
If you're leaving this world, I'm not far behind
I thought all of this was real, I thought all of this was real

But the world I once knew is
Just like the ash and the knives in my back
When I think I've found happiness,
It never lasts, why won't it last?
The absolute worst of me
Does not make up all of my being
Oh, you think you know me
You know my mistakes, but you don't know me.